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Orientation next Thursday. I am so nervous. The only people I know at ND are my brother and Spencer. I just hope I don't scare people away as I usually do. I had the worst time in 8th grade with only a few friends. I hated homeroom. Science was horrible and L.A. was okay. Social Studies was bad becasue there was Mrs. Ostroy.

Math was the only period I really liked becasue Popkin sat right next to me and we talked!!!

I don't know what it is about me, but I hate being alone. Well sometimes I really like being alone. Out in public, though, I'd rather have a good friend with me.

Friendship is a tough subject for me. All of my best friends have betrayed me. Each and every single time. Thats why I like having big groups of really good friends [i.e. the g-girls] Sometimes I wish I had that one friend who would live rihgt nxt door and we would do everything together! We would like the same things, etc.

I'm boisterous, and odd. I suppose I don't make friends really easy. And sometimes I've had the worst luck with finding some.

To all my friends here in E.W., you are the only friends who would listen to me. The only ones who gave a shit about my life. You enjoyed things I liked. With us, there aren't followers or leaders. We're just a group of kids growing up through middle school into High School. For that I thank you. I love you guys more then you'll ever know. My family life is a mess so those seldom trips to the mall, diiners at the chinese resturant, and trips to the movies, are my way. My escape. I can be me! No matter how annoying, no matter how loud I am, I have this gut feeling that you won't abandon me like those people did to me years ago. Thank you!!!!!!

One of the biggest fears in my life would be losing my friends. Whether it would be through moving or just losing contact. Fuck both those options. Real friends stay together. Even long distance friends stay friends.

I know for a fact that all of my friends will be visting me where ever I move to next summer.

Thank you for caring. Thanks for putting up with any of my shit. Thanks for being there. Thanks for the laughs. Thanks for the hugs. Thanks for the locker slams in my head.[^^] Thanks for arguing. Thanks for the updates to life. Thanks for the Enlightment. Thanks for the advice. Thanks for the tears.

But most of all, thank you for never saying that you wouldn;t be my friend anymore after a fight.

I love you guys. [Not like that!] ^^